我们之间

黑暗里的思考~
今天的你如此疲劳
却还能尽情的撒娇

有你在身边多好
再苦，见你就能安心的笑
心疼你需要吃苦药
可是怎么我也吃？真没想到==

黑暗里听见你家人的对话
爸爸-严格的声音
哥哥-冷漠的对话
姐姐-熟女的稳定
妈妈-温柔的关心

你的家
好有趣
好想呆在那角落几天~
体验你跟他们的之间
还有你那不说人话的小比XD

经过了今天~
爱你多过昨天
不知我们之间~
会不会再遇见如此搞笑的画面

如果遇见
希望你会一直一直的
呆在我身边
成为我的一切一切
一起度过每一天^^

爱那么的自私

小男孩看见小女孩
手上拿着一合巧克力
她很爱吃巧克力
可是小男孩看见了
当小女孩吃巧克力时
就会伤心流泪

小男孩把小女孩手中的巧克力合拿走
吃了一粒后，心想~怎么那么的苦？
这时小男孩就像个变态，一粒一粒把巧克力吃光

小女孩大骂
：你怎么能一个人独吞我的巧克力呀？！

小男孩静了一下`然后说
：因为你吃着巧克力时~会哭呀
：我要把让你不开心的巧克力通通吃掉

小女孩回答
：也不用把它吃完呀！留点给我嘛

小男孩后来忍不住告诉小女孩说~
：因为~我爱你呀~不想你不快乐~

所以自私的把巧克力吃完

i hate this part

i've been reducing what i've been doing
i need to do this slowly
you dint give me time to do dat
all you gave was limitations

come back before this and that
all these just makes me not wana come back at all
i reli wish i were a boy
dat way i dun hv to give a damn
even if im in a wreck, even if my room was messy
i wont be hearin no more of "you're a messy girl"
"you're the laziest girl i've seen"
fucked up with what you have to say

yea? what happen to those triumphs i've earned?
you just put it all in one cold site
the 1st thing you said when i wanted to keep a puppy
no!
the 1st thing you said when i wanted to learn taekwando
no!
the 1st thing you said when i wanted a laptop
no!
the 1st thing you said when i told you about herbalife
dont ask us to buy!

a friend told me i give up too easily..
but what do i get when i try even hardeR?
more disappointment..
practically in everything i do..

fuck everything
so what if i dress up like a guy?
aren't i not still your child?
so what even if i reli like girls..
does it mean i dont deserve to be me?

i've tried to talk to my mother about things..
but what she does to things she know?
like my sister's case
my mother told the whole earth.

i tried to tell a church..
but what do they do?
tell my family instead of trying to help me personally..
i tried to tell my sis
bt it seems that she's facing more then i am..
who else can i tell?
just my friends ...

just like me, my friends tell me things..
just like me they face problems..
coming out to talk about things
dats no crime..

.......and bla bla bla~ i can go on forever..
i can even start when i was 5 years old..
but fuck it.. its no use..
i'll just find my own joy..
...........

简单的七个字

可能

只是你一时的感觉

却对我来说

如此的刺心...

boring day

morning-------class
noon-----------prepare for test
afternoon------test till 5.30
evening--------carefour + home + sleep
nite -----------sleep + tv
midnite--------online

[lifeless]

18th april friend geh bdy norh~
hmmmm~
wanted to teman dear go buy present 2gether de
but i cant!
real shity narh!
end up she went wit a friend~ ><

2day is a really hot day~
make me moody pulak -,-
argh!!!!
reli wana punch sum1~
or do sumting to get this hot,stuffy feeling in my heart out!!

haih~ sorry dear~
knw u tried to cheer me up
bt it is REALLY VERRYYY HOT ><
and + my parents=.= make me more angry
T.T im a person with a temper~ ><

whoaaa~

muahahaha~
2day~ mr. falahat's class all canceled! hapi!!
XD so we get to start class at 1.45pm oo
^^ dear dear gave me morning call~
bt she seem to hv a bad morning ba~
aiks~ >< dear~ everything will be ok narh~

then then i wanted to hang out the cloths de~
juz reli reli reli lazy~ then din wake~
half sleep half awake n text my love
then woke up aound 10am~ gua
play com awhile~
then 12pm++ dad fetch me to lrt`
saw quite alot of leng zai n leng lui 2day~
XD and and i saw sum1 dat look like my dear neh
hahahahaha~ almost wanted to go n hug her tight tight!

after class~ went to dear place~
then sleep awhile=slept for a long time =.=
she wanted to go brem mall geh~
bt slept too long jor~ so tak jadi
sorry dear~ ><

then met wit jacky n her kaigor~
eat eat at batu 3 there~
then then~ we all went to desa park city
went to the supermarket to buy some stuff~
then then~ went to the play ground and touch everything~
XD then dear suddenly wana play cow cow~=.= those cheer stunt~
>< bt i dont usually play dat~
so din reli get wad she wanted~
3 sor po playing cheer stunt there~ hahaha~ ^^
took some pictures yar~ ^^

2day was quite a nice day
accept for getting a text from sis saying:
"dad know about you"
>< if reli he knw dat i am les
~ aiks~ bt i am who i am~he cant stop me
sorry dad

ps:dear~
juz wana say dat im glad i have you ^^
you really make my day a better one~
gona miss eu now dat ur not by my side~
love you always =)

im just tired

guess i need a rest from everything~
a rest from home,
a rest from my studies
a rest from my sadness
a rest from thinking of those moments
a rest from wanting things to happen
a rest from knowing about her feelings for Her
a rest from peeking into everything
a rest from being a person who comforts others
a rest from wanting to be a someone
from wanting her love
from trying to be someone else
from striving to mean something to her
im just really tired and dried uP~
now it is me who needs to be refilled up
im tired of crying,and trying
i need you right now ='(
dear~><

it rained today

今天下雨了
你一个人在家
没办法让你觉得不那么怕不那么孤独~
对不起
你该都有想起他对吧
在fs在电话
都会出现他送你的公仔
今天你写blog
那首歌~该是你当时的心情对吧
歌里的“你”
是他~
可能我想得太多

之前我都告诉过朋友说
“我不要再知道XX的事情~
xx的东西了~不再去找xx也不去开他的blog
因为我怕自己会乱来做些不该的事”
可是~~今天~我又去开xx的blog了
越看就越心酸
xx还是会有让她心动的能力

我不知所措
本想在电话上告诉她
告诉她我在想的
可是~之前~都有几次试着开口说
她~好像都睡了

好怕有一天
xx会再追回你
xx会从我手中把你夺走
不是因为xx有本事
而是因为你愿意去
都好怕。。。

if both of us were drowning at the same time
who will you save?
你的心，在那里？
我对你来说~重要么？

will you say yes?

Saw wad YoU had to say~

girl you made my day~

though some thoughts are still in me

yet everything about you makes me smile

_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_

stay by my side

treat me differently

think of me always

never let me go

spend your time on me

save your brightest smile for me

hold my hands only

trust in me

love me only

miss me always

be my angel =)

_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_

will you say yes?

我可以~变成你的自信

每天~
我就是这么对着在车子里的小foofy~
有说有谈~
希望自己不那么介意她心里有他的存在

我以为~我可以包容她心里有别的人~
可是~原来~我是那么的自私~
明知~她还很在意他
可是~还要坚持要她放下

一天比一天的更爱她
所以一天比一天的介意她还会想他

今天的我们~
过得还蛮不错~
感觉上~我们稳定了下来~
直到你打电话来~
以为你想找我聊聊~
谁知~
你是因为不见他买给你的公仔~
打来问我有没有看见~
而且~你很紧张~

你都会想到他~
对吧？
想他~就会想哭~
你~不累么？
心~不够碎？

这时的我~哭了~
跟平时的泪~平时的感觉~
不一样了~
心并没碎~
反而~感觉到整颗心~
在震斗

你~真的不打算回答我的问题？
就打算永远~用别个问题来答复我?
是；不是；会；不会；要；不要；想；不想
就那么简单~
你是没答案~?
还是你开不了口？

现在的我
有点不想知道答案了
就让我默默陪你放下
陪你哭，陪你笑~
陪你玩乐，陪你睡着
一直到你对他，毫无心动的空间了

what the fuck

shity thing!
2day~ i vacumm my car..
i parked and occupied two spaces
reason is my car door cant open wide,harder to vacumm

then after i gao dim~
grandpa's ladder was blocking my parking spot
so i left the car there
my sis came bec..
no space to park in,
so she park outside
neighbour punya wira was blocking
so she had to reverse~
n her myvi kinda hit the cement seat outside..
=.= shit, the bumper look like nothing happen~
yea, new 2nd hand car.. bt reli
i dont see a difference~
cant even see the scratch~

advice to sis~ the myvi bumper looks ok
so really dont have to change it~
ntg much need to be done
=.= i REALLY CANT SEE THE SENGET PART.... ><

no.1~ hate it when im being blamed at
when i actually dint do anything wrong..
no.2~ hate it when im to be used to throw temper at
when i did nothing..
no.3~
HATE IT WHEN HE HAS TO ALWAYS PULL ME INTO THE PICTURE!!!
wtf!! ...

bee: (after reparking my car) walk to the door
dad: the way you all drive a! really cost me alot!
bee: =.= where did she hit the car oo??
dad: DONT ASK LA!!!

fuck fuck!!!!!><
simple question oso wana throw temper!!

gek!! lousy afternoon!!

negative

results out for my blood test~
yea~=.= my thyroid is back..
haih~
now i'll have my parents mumbling
asking me to go to bed early~
and to take medication...
blablablablablabla~~
sien~

we will make it through♥

Don’t stop when you’ve never been closer
Just cause you don’t know what matters most
The way wont always be so clearly right in front of us

And if the sun will set tonight,
Hold our secrets up to the sky
As our shadows grow
There’s nothing left to hide
And if you ever doubt
You will know that I still wonder
How many times that I’ve compared the stars to your eyes

Dosent really matter how it all became forsaken

Got this far without knowing who we truly are

I will never doubt that

We will make it through
No matter the cost we’ve gone this far
Why not find out how it works out for you and me
We’ll make it through
I thought we were lost but somehow we
Haven’t found a way yet
I hope that we never do

Just me and you =)

i cant seem to stop my [♥] from ♥ing eu><

its gona be ok

dear~
there are times when crying isnt enough
there are times when you feel you are sinking
there are times when u'd wish time would stop~

i know you hate yourself for thinking about her
i know you feel that you might hurt me
dont worry, just hurt me~
i know your answer to my question..
just take your time to cherish every moment~
then take your time to tell me by yourself~

take your time k?
take it slowly~
one step at a time~
i wont go nowhere~
i promise

fish is stupiak =.=

今天~你的心情很差

看来是因为我吧~

可能你不知道

可是~ 早上的心情，

就是你一整天的心情

都是因为我的烂愚人玩笑~=.=

搞到你先在那么没心情~

sorry dear~ T.T

i'll start your day better and make eu smile

hope you'll fast fast be ok narh~
coz i cant seem to do anything right without eu~ =(

没有人介入
所有人觉得你满足
我把心血全都付出
你为何想要哭

为你做主
让你受到我的保护
可是你像受苦
到底是谁难以相处

我给你幸福
你问我什么才是幸福
这个问题反而让我
把你看个清楚

想你幸福
想不到分手你才幸福
是谁的错误
我不认输我忍得住

我忍痛温柔的祝福
你会一生都记住
我要你铭心刻苦

================================
干妹写了这给我
说很有意思~
适合我？

哈哈~虽然可能有几句是适合我
可是~我可不希望
她分手才幸福噢><

我会好好加油~
^^ 妹~谢谢你的支持

i did another stupid thing~april fool

waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!! T.T *sob~
today~ april fool~
the day i did the most stupid thing~
i made a stupid joke ><

arhhhh~
sorry dear~ my bad nia~ T.T
here goes the story~

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bee:早安噢宝贝~
fish:en...morning...dear
bee:~你还是别将叫我了~其实~我跟你一起~我还有跟另个女子交往着~
bee:那女子的名字你很认识的~叫 april fool!! xD
fish: 不好玩
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waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!
sorry sorry sorry sorry~!!
dear dear angry jor T,T
*sob*
stupiak bee!! play sumore la!!!!!
>< (weep)

老婆对不起~

我的心只有你一个呀~

>< 知错了~

你说

你说~想把自己打死算
因为发生的一切一切~
都是你自己拿来
其实你还很爱他
你说~不想把他当回朋友
因为你知道自己又会对他心动
其实你还很爱他
你说~你要快快把他忘掉
可是~你还会去读他所写的东西
其实你还很爱他
你说~他从你心里走着出来，
而我走着进你的心
真的是这样吗？
你说~你开了我的blog
有密码的那篇文章
那~里面的问题
你会说些什么来回答呢？

girl u wont know how it feels

when ur holding a hand

that belongs to a heart with sum1 else in it..

=) even so, i cant stop ♥ing eu