the little girl's bday has just gone by~
the little boy took the initiative to gather all the friends that they once knew..
along the help with some friends,
they had a nice bday party...
the girl smiled and laughed at least,
though it wasnt really a perfect suprise (coz of the poor acting from the little boy)
bt the lil girl's smile was good enough for the little boy to feel content...

now the little girl will have another bday party
from another little boy along with other friends...
true words from the heart?
little boy wonders if that other boy did better then he did..
but deep in those thoughts,
this little boy just wants the little girl to have a good time and ignore every other feeling..

there's no stand for the little boy to feel the least of jealousy or to compare..
bcoz deep inside the little boy still knows,
it might never happen..
but she allows this little boy to be close to her and understand her..
just as a friend... nothing more...
to her, its a friend that she feels she owes alot to him now..
to him~ its a love that will never happen as it is now..
to her, there might be someone new...
to him... she's meant for someone better...



probably~
just mayb, if i was realistically a boy~..
things will be different..

but realistically, im not

im just a little boy's soul...

Heart of an apology

There was a story of a boy and a girl

the little boy is one year older then the little girl.
they met each other by the sea side.
The little girl was playing with some friends.
The little boy then walked over to them.
All of them made friends with each other.

Ever since the little boy and the little girl started to be close
The others left them and seldom played with them
The little boy said, don't worry, they will soon find out what a good friend you are
and then come back to you.
True enough, some did.
The little boy and the little girl talked to each other about everything.
The little girl will easily get depressed and emotions are unstable
But the little boy will have a hard time to sense those feelings
Despite that, the little boy would still protect the little girl
He would bring her to places she liked until they will get bored of it
The little boy would try his best to get her what she likes.
The little boy would introduce new friends from time to time.
And when they left, the little boy still tries to be there for her.

When she was sad, and he'd knew, the little boy will cuddle in from behind
and then give her a hug without saying a word.
When she was sad and he'd knew, the little boy will also make her play
so that she can keep her mind off the things that make her sad
When she was sad, and he'd knew, the little boy will try to make a fool out of himself
hoping that she will smile again~
but this time, she was unhappy because of her mother and he knew.
But the little boy made a wrong fool out of himself
by lying to her that he threw away a thing of hers.
The little girl still was calm and told him not to do that again.
When he told her the truth that he was joking,
The little girl was furious and didnt want to talk to him.
She walked away and left him sitting alone.
A few times she will come by, and when the little boy tries to apologize,
The little girl will avoid him..

The little boy wrote a few notes of apology around the shore~
on the wall, on the sand, sent her letters, and carved that apology on a rock of his heart.
Until now.. he is 20 and she is 19..
the little boy had always liked to hug her and kiss the little girl on the forehead.
but he couldnt get the chance to do it again.
until now.. He cries in his heart and promised to himself never to make the same mistake
But she still carried on with her own businesses and left him waiting at the shore alone.


Truth is i am that little boy. she is the little girl.
Like a sheep i do stupid things that makes no sense.
Like a crab she has a soft heart, but she has her own timing as well.
I will wait till you actually talk to me again, just like how the little boy in me would.
Little girl, will you please forgive me and put that joke behind?
Feels like a whole lifetime since you ignored me
The little boy's Sincerity is as pure as an uncontaminated ocean..
The little boy's heart is as warm as the sun.
I am as truly sorry as the little boy.

♥I'll be your cuddle and a kiss on your forehead♥