so yeah...
just as i expected for something to happen..
no matter how much it hurts.. i'll have to be good now...
for my own good i guess...
it'll take time... will u still be able to tolerate this?
i doubt so.. coz i betrayed ur trust..
wadever it is... wadever my reason may be..
IT NEVER MATTERS!!!!

change? yeah... definitely need to...
just very normal friends? i cant..
a little sister maybe.. or a close friend maybe..
very normal friend... maybe the next step.. ...


thing is... you never were a _ _ _ _ _ _ _ to me...
not once at all... coz i know...
you'll never get past yourself.. the you that loves your family...
sorry that you had to lie...
sorry you had to cry...
sorry you had a hard time...
i pulled you into my kind of world..
-being alone inside...
just you dint really notice it...

i hate being alone at school...college... in the work place...
or maybe in tuition classes...
shopping mall, yeah maybe i can, but not for long....
i dont have much close friends, but the close friends that i have..
are the kind that dont give much of a damn.. wad i wana do, i do...
if i need them, they'll be there... if they need me, they'll try to get me...
i guess i seem to shut out those who wants to care for good..

wadever.. im the reason you're being criticized anyway..
same as sarah,,, but its just your case being worst...
felt that so long ago... mayb even with ju...
yeah anyway... dont knw what to say anymore... im tired too..
bt i'll be fine