stayed up till the morning
dont know why i have this feeling
that will never go

dressed up for the evening
on my bed watching the ceiling
dont know where to go

now its taken me this long
baby but i feared too much
coz now its taking me deeply
all i wanted was to be your all

dont matter anymore
after all
you dont seem to respond
even if, i, would
have just left you and gone

baby will u call out to me
if you'd never get to see me
like you did before?
you're not sorry
no~no~

i woke up

with tears

a dream

of sadness..

the only way to get over it

is to tell myself

[its just a dream]

recent activities:
-eat
-sleep
-class
-pool game
-restorant game(facebook)
-burger shop 2
-baby having holidays now

things to do this week:
-bring baby to buy artificial bread to sell
-bring baby to book fair around klcc area
-complete parts of my assignment
-heal my ulser.. T.T
-wash my car
-classes
-save some $$ xD ngek

baby sleeping like piggie nw.. ><

ps: i 4gt to take my medcine for a few days jor.. aiks..

[你完全的离开了我的世界
留下的也只是残酷的快乐回忆
如今你也有了另一个她
平时的称呼也有了她的声音代替了我的
不再属于我的hubby
不再是你的booboo

现在的我会好好过
虽然有些时候
还是会崩溃的思念
心猛烈的欢呼着你
一直希望你也在想念着我 ]

this is what my heart would think

if i were you, that saw him again

baby i will still be the one who will stand by you

the one who cares for you

though sometimes i am not the one for you

you will always be the one for me

u caught my heart in every single way..

leaving me only one thing to say

i love you

so hold on to my hands dont ever let go

coz i wana have you by my side

wherever i go

sulky saturday

had japanese for dinner

nothing for lunch..

slept through breakfast time..

thought i'd enjoy a good supper with her..

but she's going out with her ex instead..

now they're friends..

so i dont really have any comments..

she did invite me along..

but... she dint seem to wish i'd come..

so i rejected her offer

here's what we said..

fish:等下跟华华出，看你要不要跟

bee:噢~怎样去？

fish:他驾车上丫丫山啦

bee:哦，那你要不要我跟？

[paused for a moment...]

fish:等下他飞车你又多多话讲噢

bee:将我没有去，他飞车我还不是会多多话讲

fish: ...

bee:不会有什么我会讲的啦

fish:随便你啦，你要去你跟我讲，我现在叫他来载我先

[click][tut~]

........ hmmm.......

do i have a point in writing this out?

yes... im being a "gia su" bf...

being afraid of things when i should gv her some space instead..

her own space to have a relationship with people she wants to

i should even gv myself some space..

sigh

its tiring to be jealous

its tiring to try to be cool

when all i can think of is her safety and hapiness

but she doesnt seem to gv a damn bout it..

so fuck it...

fuck everything that i've done..

fuck the tears and the effort

fuck the perfect love story i wanted so badly..

fuck the hope i planted in so deeply

those goals just makes me suffer even more..

so for now,

[new objective attained]:

just dont worry and be happy :)